Hi there. I've been following the movement for a while now, signing petitions and keeping an eye on everyone's stories. At first, seeing how many other couples have been separated by the virus and subsequent restrictions, it helped to know I wasn't alone in my suffering. Now that so much time has passed and US borders still remain closed, separating me from my partner, with no news on when things might change, every single day, I think more and more about just ending things.
I'm a lifelong sufferer of poor mental health, and my support network is very, very small. Being apart from my partner for such a long time has just absolutely destroyed my life. I live in Europe, and it seems as though my country's government hasn't even considered the impact all this has on someone's mental health, as time and time again, they've made things so much worse. It also seems as though they have no intention of opening up to America.
We've had to rebook my flights 3 times now, and every time, the price increases by a huge amount. Neither my partner nor I can afford to take the route of quarantining in a country like Mexico to get around the borders being closed. My partner also cannot come here because he would lose his job if he were to quarantine here for the amount of time required by law before being allowed to see me.
I am currently in therapy, and the therapist is fully aware of the way I'm feeling, but that doesn't change anything. At this point, I just don't want to be alive anymore. Has anyone else managed to find a way to cope with feeling so much despair?